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I was going to write about this in poetic form, but it wasn’t sounding quite right, was sounding like I was trying to oversimplify or be dismissive.  Addiction is something I understand personally, but not in the grander scheme of things.  I get how it affected me. I get how it still affects me as I am still addicted to nicotine. What I have never gotten or fit in with is the whole recovery culture, the Alcoholics Anonymous/Narcotics Anonymous structure. I don’t get the entire philosophy that says “I have no power” and how that helps people. How does saying that you are powerless help you recover? For me – I want to claim my own power; my power as a human, as a woman, as a mother. I want to own it, to stand firm in it, to grow confident in it. I don’t want to hand that power over to anyone else or try to say I don’t have any – that seems so foreign to me. And yes, I’ll piss a lot of people off saying this, but that just sounds weak. It sounds like you’re holding on to a good excuse for if you do screw up, like then we can just blame some force outside of ourselves for our own decisions. I also strongly disagree with the term “recovering” that says that every single person on the planet who has ever been an addict will ALWAYS be an addict, that you can’t ever be RECOVERED. 
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