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Monotone Life

Trapped in a world I no longer recognize

where love is vanquished and dreams seize to exist

Confined in a world lacking true emotion

where day-to-day existence is robotic,

one foot in front of the other down a path to nowhere.

If I were cut would I bleed?

What would it take to create tears in my eyes again?

To have true joy spill from my heart?

I vaguely remember those feelings,

if I try hard enough, I can recall what love felt like

can pretend for a moment to be bathed in it

before reality rushes back in and  its extinguished.

Stuck in a world that reads more like a textbook than a novel,

looks more like a black and white silent film

than a vibrant, full-color, action-packed flick.

Trapped, confined, stuck

I know there must be a way out

but I don’t even know the words that would need to be written

to rewrite the story, to alter the course.


Time to Let Go of Hope?

I read this today from my friend’s daily calendar “Insight from the Dalai Lama”:

                There is a saying in Tibetan, “Tragedy should be utilized as a source of strength. No matter what sort of difficulties or how painful an experience is, if we lose our hope, that’s our real disaster.”
Continue reading Time to Let Go of Hope?

Most Days….

One of my more melancholy poems:

Most days my children bring so much sunshine into my life I’m tempted to put on sunglasses.
Most days I have so many things going on I’m a constant stream of motion.
Most days the love of my friends has me floating on a cloud and I’m overcome with gratitude.

Some days, seemingly out of nowhere, this immense loneliness strikes.
Some days the sadness is brief, and like a passing shadow vanishes quickly.
Some days it lingers, and I cannot shake it, as it begins to consume my thoughts. Continue reading Most Days….

My Bucket List


  1. Raise healthy/well rounded kids (working on it!)
  2. Go kayaking/camping by myself
  3. Finish my Bachelor’s Degree
  4. Go Skydiving with Emma on her 18th birthday
  5. Take a hot-air balloon ride
  6. Parasailing
  7. Scuba diving
  8. Swim with dolphins
  9. Go on a cruise
  10. Go Whale watching
  11. Visit all 50 states (been to 36 plus D.C. – yes, airports count – but that was only two of them so I guess 34 if you don’t count em! Not counting when I was a baby  though since I don’t remember)
  12. Week long backpacking trip with the kids (did 3 days)
  13. Disney World
  14. All 72 State Parks
  15. At least 5 National Parks
  16. Visit 5 out of 7 continents (not Antarctica or Australia)
  17. Move to someplace outside of Minnesota
  18. See a Broadway Play
  19. Write my life-story, even if I never publish it
  20. Do something I enjoy for money in my later years, rather than working a 9 – 5 job just to pay the bills
  21. Go to a horse race
  22. Take a trip via train
  23. Take a tour of the White House
  24. Go grape stomping
  25. Take skiing/snowboarding lessons
  26. Go Whitewater rafting
  27. Hold a snake
  28. Go on the Power Tower or some other ride I’ve been too scared of
  29. Stay in a cabin for a whole weekend during the winter
  30. Learn a foreign language enough to make small talk at least
  31. Watch my grand kids graduate/get married
  32. Drive a motorcycle
  33. Run for public office – school board, city council, something local
  34. Attend at least one party where I get to wear a  gown
  35. Stay at a ranch and learn how to ride a horse
  36. Try sauerkraut
  37. Take the girls tubing behind a boat
  38. Learn how to belly dance or something sexy to boost confidence
  39. Get Lasik
  40. Go to a Theater/Dinner show
  41. Fly in a helicopter
  42. Share a poem/spoken word piece at an Open Mic
  43. Take a specialty cooking class
  44. Go to a rodeo

I should do as some other bloggers I’ve seen do too – and make a “Reverse Bucket List” – I think it would be cool to take stock in some of the amazing experiences I have already had!