Category Archives: Thinking Outloud

Letting Go in 2019

This is the last year of my 30s – it is time to both let go and to grow

Time to let go of all the fantasies, the what-ifs, the if-onlys, the lingering loyalties, the resentments, the lost loves, lost friendships.

Time to let go of heartache, pain, hatred, self-doubt, self-hate, and self-sabotage.

Time to grow into the woman I am and let go of the woman I thought I’d be, time to grow internally and let go of the things I thought I needed externally to make me happy, time to grow professionally – whatever that may mean, time to let go of the way I thought life should be and grow into accepting the way life is, learning to adapt to reality, to control the things I can and let go of the things I cannot.

Time to show myself more self-care, time to stop wasting energy on those who don’t put any energy into me, time to regain myself, my womanhood, to fall in love with myself and let go, as impossible as it may seem at times, of those who do not reciprocate my love.

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I Write to…

I am writing just to write, just to feel alive

to get out of the space in my head

and place my hopes and dreams firmly in reality;

or what feels like reality anyways,

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Searching in all the wrong places…

Words of inspiration.

Quotes over pretty pictures.

Recommended self-help books.

I’m reading and absorbing,
reflecting and trying to be open.
Hoping to hear or read just the right something,
yearning for those words that will be transformative,
life-changing, affirming;
will light a spark,
change the trajectory of my life,
help to heal my badly battered heart.

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A Content Life

Wasn’t happy
Haven’t been happy in quite some time,
Content, I was content
Had come to terms with a life of solitude.

Continue reading A Content Life