Category Archives: Loss

Writing My Happy Ending

I want to write a novel, an essay,

a work of literary brilliance…

yet I cannot untangle the weeds in my head,

the thoughts of you that ensnare every other thought,

the what’ifs that choke the life out of every other dream.

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Healing

New dreams need to be created

when the old ones only create pain;

unrealized, they fester in my soul,

a black cloud covering my light.

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Searching in all the wrong places…

Words of inspiration.

Quotes over pretty pictures.

Recommended self-help books.

I’m reading and absorbing,
reflecting and trying to be open.
Hoping to hear or read just the right something,
yearning for those words that will be transformative,
life-changing, affirming;
will light a spark,
change the trajectory of my life,
help to heal my badly battered heart.

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Thank You My Love

Thank you, thank you for coming back into my life
thank you for yanking me out of my complacency
for ripping open old wound,
for making my heart feel again.

I have put a strong, hard front up for so long
I have been sleep walking through life
taking care of others, neglecting myself.

Thank you for making me cry again
it feels therapeutic after a long drought,
thank you for making me think again
about what I want and what I don’t.

I have loved you for so long
it will be hard to finally let go,
I am sad we don’t get our happily ever after
that the us I’ve fantasized of isn’t what you want.

Thank you for the sweet moments,
for holding me close and making me feel safe and loved,
even if only for a moment
thank you for pushing me towards finally seeking healing….